this year rather than just expect that someone will buy me my kitchenaid 6 qt professional stand mixer (for the kitchen in the house that i do not have yet) i will provide a list of things i want…
ok, the list isn’t very long. i was going to add something else, but thought that i better not start any trouble (today).
ok, so lately my schedule has been inconsistent (to say the least). i feel like i am overcommitted, and yet i’m not doing anything. at least nothing significant. i’m not in school at the moment. i’ll start back in january, but until then i have things i should work on, but never seem to have the time. even when i think that i am making the time something comes up and i am pulled to something else. i just started working at barnes and noble cafe. i love making coffee. the smell makes me smile. i might actually be able to pay some bills this month and not ask daddy for too much money. i realize it is something to get me from where i am to where i am going, but it is hard to just accept that this is where i am right now. i still get to do some freelance work for a dear friend that takes pity on me and sends me work. i really appreciate her for that. i’m also almost a substitute teacher (gotta get the last of my paperwork in). i don’t know where my day goes sometimes, but it is obvious that i have little or no control over my day and i don’t like that. i need to get a handle on this before i’ve lose track of my life…
now i realize that this may only occur to me, but considering the fact that the government is going to spend 700 billion to bail out banks and wall street why is nobody complaining that the presidential candidates are blowing through an average of over 50 million a week (and that’s just in september and october). now, i’m sure that under normal economic circumstances this would be fine. and i should not be saying anything now that gas has finally dropped below $3.00 for premium, but i’m appauled. i don’t have a full time job, benefits, and my retirement account is dwindling, but the men who are viing for the presidency are spending more money in a week than i will ever pass through my bank account in my lifetime. somethng just does not seem to make sense here. especially since this is all just to get people to vote for them. couldn’t this money go to better use? like somebody give my broke ass a job with medical and dental and employer contribution to my 401k, and vacation and happily ever after…
i just got a very disheartening email. my post was flagged on craigslist. obviously i’ve offended someone, but how????
now, this may seem a little odd. me (who can not vote) telling you (who can) to go vote. but, yes that is what i am doing. i could say that i do not care who you vote for, but i do. more importantly is that you take the opportunity to vote.
ok, that was the public service announcement…on to the more classic kendy rhetoric
i’ve seen a few of the debates this 2008 election season and one thing continues to cross my mind. why it is that john mccain looks like his face is frozen, or better yet like that commercial where they stick someone else’s mouth onto the little kid (but the kid is significantly cuter than mccain). i’m just not sure what it is, but he is a cross between a ventriloquist doll and a puppet. that right eyebrow won’t go down, he blinks more than every second (i remember that i only did that when i am intoxicated and trying to focus on something important…like walking, or breathing, or not seeming like a dumbass). best of all, his face seems to be locked in a permanent position where his bottom jaw is the only movable part. somehow the flaps of skin under his chin move too, but that is irrelevant. to add insult to injury his arms don’t seem to have much mobility and any physical movement at all seems awkwardly complicated.
not that any of this bears relevance on whether or not he would make a good president. but since i can’t vote why talk about the issues like everyone else…
dating is just like a job search, it is not a numbers game (this is not vegas) the more applications you send out will not determine the call backs you get. don’t waste your time or mine if you are not qualified for the position.
Job Description:
Seeking intellectual, confident, self-aware, responsible, socially apt, well groomed, heterosexual male for procreation practice (yes, practice and practice alone)
Required Qualifications: Career oriented (not just employed); Financially responsible; Spontaneous; 6 feet tall (or taller); Proportional weight; Emotionally stable without the use of medication; Healthy (i.e. no STD’s); Interest in international travel (beyond the all inclusive resorts); Passion for life and living
Preferred Qualifications: Interest in theater, music and art; Able to discuss local, national and global politics; Understand religion as a real and abstract concept; Ability to dance (or willingness and aptitude to learn)
Application Instructions:
A) STD (Standard Time-wasting Date): Proof that you have enough money to pay for dinner at a popular national chain restaurant that uses real silverware where we talk about superficial things.
B) LTR (Lifetime To Recover): Now, if you are to discus religion, politics, or the affects of religion on politics and politics on religion, I apologize, but those are conversations I refuse to have with strangers. I reserve my real opinions and perspective for people who I would possibly be interested in getting to know. That being said, are you sure you want to venture past our witty repartee into the realm of strangers becoming acquaintances or possibly even friends? If so, I need a blood, urine, hair and stool sample along with a complete family history (maternal and paternal), a dna sample to prove they were your biological parents, a psychological evaluation, your college transcripts, 3 letters of recommendation, 2 professional references, a credit report, and proof that you saved money by switching to geico after getting a rate quote from progressive.
this morning i woke up at 5am. i lay wondering what i am doing with my life. yes, i pondered my lack of a five year plan. my idea of the future has always been eventually i want to… apparently i need to make more specific plans. so i’ll evaluate where i am right now. sitting in the kitchen having a cup of tea two courses and a thesis away from my masters degree, fingerprints and training away from being able to substitute teach, starting a job at the new barnes and noble cafe (yes, that does mean 50% off coffee and 30% off books!), and that’s pretty much it.
i need to have a plan. any suggestions? i’m looking for teaching positions, i’m going to be back in school next semester and finish over the summer, i’m considering applying to USF for their phd program, and i’ve decided what i want to be when i grow up (yes, i am not grown up yet!)…a philanthropist. so, now that we’ve decided that i should map out my plan.
that was easy. i should do this whole planning thing more often.
I sat this morning thinking about some of the greatest love stories of all time. Yes, I know I am such a romantic. Some of the greatest literature was written to express love as an exploration of the deepest emotion. This poem reflects the kind of love I want to have and also have reciprocated. Sonnet XLIII by Elizabeth Barrett Browning;
How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday’s
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood’s faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, — I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! — and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.
i’m reading The Age of Innocence by Edith Wharton. i’ve been a fan of her ever since reading Ethan Frome where she describes a character as a wizened rose. her imagery is stellar. thus far my favorite quote is a definition of marriage as;
“a dull association of material and social interests held together by ignorance on one side and hypocrasy on the other” (38)
i want to read the book from cover to cover in one sitting. it is that good, but since i have other things to do with my life it probably won’t happen today. i do have all weekend though.
Do you remember your first time? Most people recall an awkward experience between two people who had no idea what they were doing, no proverbial fireworks, the earth moved (but no more than usual). And that’s if you even remember it at all. Idealistically I could put a price tag on it, but since I gave it away that price does not matter. It’s not like I can go back though my taxes and claim a deduction for a donation I made.
This brings me to all this fuss in the news about this Sacramento State co-ed who has decided to turn what people generally give away into her most valuable asset. The irony, this truly is the worlds oldest profession and people continue to do it to this day, regardless of social status, but ince it can not be taxed or regulated we find it morally wrong. Women have had their virginity sold to the highest bidder for ages (we now call it marriage). Daughters were used as political and economic tools to align families, maintain wealth, and create partnerships.
So, why all the fuss about this 22 year old woman who has graduated from college and decided to use her virginity to provide her with financial security. Unlike most girls her age who seek these things in the institution of marriage, she recognizes that the best bang (pun intended) for a buck is not marriage.
Sex has and continues to be one of the highest commodities traded. We all remember the addage “Sex Sells”, because it does. From Disney to Playboy, sex or the lack thereof, is a promotional tool used to market to a specific audience. I would not be surprised if we find out down the line that the US government provided funds to Disney for their artists to promote selibacy. It is not like the company has any religious convictions, but it is significanlty more profitable for them and their employees if they are marketable to their target audience as well as their audience’s parents.
So back to the question…how much was yours worth? Considering the current rate, I was drastically underpaid!